i just STANDSTILL

it has been never been like this, 

not quite sure of what i want

don’t know what more that i need to do,

feels like a soul devoid of life;

one moment my joy knew no bounds, 

a new beginning is what i got, 

a new meaning to a lonely existence, 

i was happy;

as reality dawned on me, 

i felt my happiness come crashing down, 

all in one big thud, i wondered 

if my luck was anything but bad;

i try to find a reason, 

i try to find a cure, 

i tried all that was possible, 

but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;